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Is it birthday or bored-day???

Its my birthday--I think!?!   It seems just like an ordinary day except it's a little more boring than an average Friday should be.  Besides the fact that I am suppose to be hanging out with my boyfriend (who has yet to arrive), my sister calls and tells me that her ******* beat her up, I started my period, and I am out of my mind bored.  I would make other plans to go hang out but since I am suspecting to hang out with Adam (boyfriend)- I am waiting..and waiting.   I can only hope that today is not what my last teen year (19) is going to be like. It probably will be-- with school and work, staying sober and NO car---oh god--- where has the excitement gone??? I need it other wise I might turn into a really lame bitch on wheels...well more than I already am!  So yeah---If this is my birthday I dont want to know about it--its too depressing for words. No calls,no presents,nothing. I miss being young. It seems like the older you get---the only thing you get is older. I swear- If I get a stupid card---it better have money or midol in it---otherwise, I am liable to go postal.  A broke,bored chic like me doesnt need another card. I already have too many (19yr X ea. family member who remembered = way too many)...

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- FOOLISH

OK---got to vent...I hate my boyfriend.  He makes me miserable but sometimes he makes me really extremely happy..but most of the time I am miserable.  We have broken up twice and twice have I taken him back---& still am I miserable.  I only get to see him about two days a week and sometimes I have to talk him into even coming.  Well, we had made plans to spend tonight together--we had these plans alll week. well, monday he called off work cause he had a migraine, then two hours later he worked on his car. ok fine, glad he felt better! Tuesday he had to chop down his tree in the front yard-- It wasnt a cherry tree so i figured he was telling the truth! Wednesday I went to Maya Angelou and he was suppose to pick me up---nope he had a migraine so he took 8 excedrin  and passed out (but only for an hour---come on- if i took 8 fucking excedrin i personally wouldnt wake up for days---Am I right??? ) Well ok so he called while I walked a mile in the FrEeZiNg cold, downtown, at night waiting an hour to catch my bus-.  Whatever Not a Big deal--Thursday (yesterday)- I call him after work and his phone is off!!! ok I figure the battery went dead---but then i realize that he has a car charger.  come to find out he turned his phone off while taking his friend amber to work. well get this---Amber is a virgin, a friend of his before we met.  Later on last night adam told me that one of his  guy "friends" from work told him that he had made a promise with another friend to "take her virginity" but now that guy friend has a new girlfriend but still wants to take the girl's v-card...Is it cheating??? Now I might be a little clueless so let me recap...adam and amber (a virgin, who he drove home that very day & apparently they hang out more than i thought) were friends before adam got a girlfriend(that would be me)---Coinkidink??? I think not!!!  so THEN  today this ass tells me that he might be too sick to hang out tonight...although he isnt too sick to go to work and he isnt too sick to go help out his dad---but to sick to come see his girlfriend that he has only spent ONE GOD LOVIN MOTHER FUCKIN' HOUR WITH THIS WEEK---ONE HOUR!!!

WHAT DO I DO??????????????

Saw Maya Angelou last night at UC! It was kinda funny. I've been reading here book and just yesterday I find out that she was coming to town.  So i hopped on a bus and saw her!!! it was awesome! 

Anyways---stuck at school with nothing to do  for a few hours> grrrrrrrrrrr.

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I got a week break- end of term!!! I also got my grades ...3 A's  and 2 C's - they were almost B's but oh well.  I still managed to keep a 3.0 GPA  so its whatever .  Went to my first titty bar - I was trying to take one home but the babysitter for my nephew (who was an hour away) called because "he wouldn't stop crying".  So we had to leave and when we got there to pick him up they said that he had been sleeping for ---an HOUR......SO we sat around drinking all night and I...had my fun we'll say !!!  anyways I start my new job on Valentine's Day --so thats cool!!! Sorry about all the faces but it is my site and i will do whatever() the F*c%() I want to OK---